Adjusting

I have longed to be a mother for what seems like forever and not just a mother but a stay-at-home mom. After graduating I had a hard time finding a career because everything in me longed for motherhood (yes, I was single). I'm guilty of being a job hopper post graduation. I finally settled on a job I liked nearly 5 years post graduation, 4 months post marriage.

I was so confused why I would finally find a job once I could finally work on that stay-at-home mom status. We literally started trying to start our family a month after I started working at my job. Little did I know it would take 11 months for us to conceive. I was so excited to finally be pregnant and a step closer to fulfilling my dream. As summer drew closer my job got extremely stressful so we made a financial goal to get me out of there a few months before Emily was born. I was so excited to embark on a new journey, the journey I had always longed for...stay-at-home mom.

In December, we started our new life as a family of 3! I most definitely LOVE being a stay-at-home mom. I love spending my day interacting & playing with Emily. I love watching her reach new milestones. I love being able to see how many times throughout the day I can make her giggle & smile. And I definitely LOVE my cuddles.

A few weeks ago a friend asked if I loved being a stay-at-home mom to which I responded, "absolutely." She then said, "I mean do you just love to stay at home?" My response, "not at all."

I hate feeling cooped up in my home. I LOVE to get out of the house. If I stay at home all day I start to feel depressed. I need social interaction. I need freedom. I need fresh air. This is hard to do with a little one especially as you are trying to develop a routine, a schedule. When she was a newborn I toted her everywhere with me! She slept all the time so it didn't matter. There even became a phase that the only time I could get her to fall asleep was in the car so I had to get out. Not to mention there always seemed to be something else I needed, i.e bottles, formula, diapers, etc. She also didn't take a nap independently until a few weeks ago so getting out of the house was my sanity. 

I try to get together with a friend at least once a week especially the days that my husband has work and school. He's gone before we wake and after we go to bed often. Those days are long for me. Unfortunately, my friends are always busy it seems or our kids are on different nap schedules. So a lot of weeks it's just me and Emily, all week long. By the end of the week I'm exhausted especially lately. I desperately am longing for time with another adult someone who understands me and what I'm going through. 

I am having a hard time adjusting as my new role as mommy. Though I've longed for this forever, there was something nice about working 9 to 5 and then being done. There was something nice about taking time for yourself. I love being a mommy, but adjusting is taking some time for me. 

What helped you adjust to your new role as mom?


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